Genaline’s Blog

It’s lenten season, the best moment to reflect on how we have lived the past year.  What matters with life is how we relate to people we come in contact with and how we relate to the God who have been merciful and forgiving..

There’s much for me to be grateful about.. One of those is the presence of my REAL friends who have been beside me through thick and thin, providing moral and emotional support through my life’s tough times.. I am grateful for my family’s presence and the young people who had been sharing my dreams ( not for material wealth but for personal upliftment and spiritual enrichment).  I thank all my friends who have been praying unceasingly.. the Carmelites and those who work for the church offering their sacrifices for a greater value more than money..

God has always been my source of happiness and .. freedom.. Noone can take away that reality from me..and noone can ever break the truth that has been set in my heart..(no liar can ever penetrate and make me believe their lies.)

I would be a liar if I would say I have not hurt anyone.. nor that I  wasn’t hurt at all.  My freedom comes from being true to myself..and to others as well.. I don’t have to pretend nor to deceive someone to be accepted.. I don’t have to lure people of my pretentious hospitality.. I am what I am ( when we face each other and when you turn your back).  I hate hypocrites.. who loves to pretend and loves to stab people at their back.. such reality runs in the society’s culture of insecure people..worst when such thing runs in the family culture.. Hypocrisy blocks real communication and real growth..

Am i guilty of being idealistic?  Or shall I allow myself to live a reality without any direction or ideals?  I’d rather die with the first option.  Much immorality has been experienced by the world.. and the young falls as  victims of much brokenness.. yet healing seem to be quite intangible and unreal..except for those who hope..and allows such pain of waiting become a test of character..

I am sorry for those I have judged rightly or wrongly.. I am but human and have my limitations.. I may sound righteous but I do admit I am a sinner..but struggling to do the right thing makes the difference.. Being free is to live a moral life, free from guilt.. Then, you’ve got nothing to hide..

Happiness shall come with God’s mercy..and forgiveness..  To live in darkness and guilt is a choice.. In the same manner, to live in happiness and freedom is a choice..  To build or to break people’s lives.. To bring hope or despair..  We make  the choice.. I make the choice, anyone can so long one believes..

I am grateful to God for allowing me to know myslef better and that I have grown again.. But much integration is yet to be done in oder to be the person I ought to be.. To you, Lord be glory and praise..for everything comes from You and through You..

I am HAPPY because I AM FREE..  May those who read experience such freedom and happiness,too.